Saturday, February 19, 2011

We all loved you before you were born

  A knock on the door or ring of the phone in the middle of the night is something we all close our ears and eyes too.  Mine came as I checked my cell phone and saw a missed call from my daughter-in-law .  My heart was pounding as I dialed the phone, I knew this was not a call I wanted to make. Through an ocean of tears she broke the news I didn't want to hear.  My dear sweet grand-baby-to-be was gone.  A surge of sadness swept over me like a tidal wave.  Our tears flowed together at the loss of our little angel. Spending time with my son and daughter in law this afternoon helped ease the pain.  It's so very sad that a tiny part of these wonderful young people is gone.

It's comforting to think that our Angel is in Jesus' arms right now. I picture all our dear family that has gone ahead of us huddled around  waiting their time to hold our Angel before we even got to. I see all our grandmothers there hovering like bumble bees...and Allen's Papaw with that huge grin of his looking so very proud !

"These are my footprints, 

so perfect and so small. 

These tiny footprints 
never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint, 
for now I have wings. 
These tiny footprints were meant 
for other things. 

You will hear my tiny footprints, 
in the patter of the rain. 
Gentle drops like angel's tears, 
of joy and not from pain. 

You will see my tiny footprints, 
in each butterflies' lazy dance. 
I'll let you know I'm with you, 
if you just give me the chance. 

You will see my tiny footprints, 
in the rustle of the leaves. 
I will whisper names into the wind, 
and call each one that grieves. 
Most of all, these tiny footprints, 
are found on Mommy and Daddy's hearts. 
'Cause even though I'm gone now, 
We'll never truly part." 

~author unknown~

So tiny, yet so loved already.  
We all loved you before you were born
Until we meet again my little Grand Angel!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

All we need is love...

After a rather exhausting day at work,I was called to our customer 
service desk at work.
As I arrived I was told that "these" were delivered for me.  There on the back counter sat a BEAUTIFUL vase filled with white lily's, yellow mums, lavender daisy's and peach roses! Reading the card, I see my AWESOME son has sent them!

What a great way to 
 bring this grueling work day to an end!! 

Mother and Daddy came up to share a Valentines/Anniversary dinner with John and I. I cooked up a "mess" of fried oysters, scallops, boiled shrimp, hushpuppies,deviled eggs and slaw! We all enjoyed sitting down sharing Valentine cards, stories and a yummy meal together ! 8 years ago today, Mother and Daddy shared a meal with us for Valentines Day and John and I announced we had remarried! A series of bad choices led to a short separation from each other. 
 But with God's healing, John and I  back together closer and more in love than ever!  
  Tonight, John called everyone to the table to give me my anniversary gift. A lovely green bag with Grogans written across it was sitting next to the beautiful flowers Allen had sent me!  My first thought is "WOW!"  Grogans is a VERY nice jewelry store! I Pulled out a pretty green wrapped box and proceeded to tear the paper away.  A lovely wooden box emerged and as I opened the lid! Expecting a bracelet or necklace maybe, a GORGEOUS solitaire diamond engagement ring glistened from within the box.  I was astonished and happy! Tears in my eyes and in Johns also , I hugged John tightly! 
It meant more to me this time, than the first one he gave me nearly 16 years 
ago that was lost.  John and I are soul-mates and best friends.  We finish each others sentences and love to spend every minute together possible! 
I thank God for second chances! 
Finishing this amazing day off with Mothers Chocolate Trifle Cake,
 made the day even sweeter!!!
I have an amazing son, husband and family!What an amazing day this has been! 

Saturday, February 12, 2011

I'm Gonna' be a GRANNY!!!

When Allen and Natasha gave us the wonderful news on Christmas , the family had to agree to keep it semi quiet until Natasha had arrived at her 12th week.  Everyone has respected their wishes and reasons and have kept  the news rather low key ...but the time is here now !
This Granny is soooo excited !!!! I am shouting this WONDERFUL news from every roof top!! If I had the means I'd have it written on Billboards every where, radio stations would be making specials announcements, and I would hire Paul Anka to rewrite his beautiful and
 famous song "Having My Baby", rewritten to say,
 "Your Having My Grandbaby" 
I know, I know...I'm going a little over the top.  But you get the idea, right?  


Friday, February 11, 2011

Best Present Ever...

 Christmas has always been a very special time for our family.  The hustle and bustle electrifies the whole house.  The smells of the kitchen swirl through the house,tickling and tempting everyone's nose! The sounds of opening doors, welcome a wonderful piece of our amazing family puzzle into the house,one by one.

"Merry Christmas," "Hello everyone," and other greetings echo through the house.       The pitter-patter of little feet rush in and out, stopping only to grab a yummy treat now and then to resupply their endless energy!

This year we were blessed with the first white Christmas in most of our recent memories.
  Snow always seems to make even the eldest of us to feel like we are a child again.  Giggles, screams and laughter bounce around the yard as tots, teens and adults scramble to grab a handful of snow to carefully mold into that perfect snowball.  A perfect plan of attack is established and many unprepared souls are bomb-barded , by these beloved family members that claim to care so much,HA!

  Snow covered faces,clothes and hair...broken bits of shattered snowballs...tiny and large footprints, along with the occasional snow-angel appear throughout the beautiful Christmas snow-scape.

  We have an extremely large family and extended family. However, no matter how many new additions we have each year, we always have room for one more.                                    
  We have opened our family to many wonderful people through the years. Extending to each one an honorary membership into our blessed family unit. Friends of daughters, sons, nieces , nephews, mothers, daddy's : It doesn't matter who you may be , your accepted, included and loved.
  It is always crowded, shoulder to shoulder, loud and confusing. Still, the love and closeness of one another always wins out over all the chaos.

This year my Christmas came to an ultimate high!  While exchanging and opening gifts with our kids, I grabbed a small flat box with a pretty bow on top.  It was addressed to me from Allen and Natasha.  I casually scan around the room watching the kids open their gifts. I take the top off my box and pull out a tiny soft green, object. Inspecting it more closely, I read in colorful stitched letters" I LOVE GRANDMA" 

I turn towards my son Allen to be met with his sweet smile and a nod of confirmation and then to my dear daughter in law, Natasha who also confirms my joy with a smile and a nod just as sweet. I'm going to be a GRANDMOTHER!

  Time stopped as I jumped to my feet share the news to everyone.  I held the tiny bib up high for Mother and John to see! Their eyes grew wide with excitement!  The news spread across the household like a wild fire! I can't remember how I got there(maybe I floated), but I was in Allen and Natasha arms.  I can't even remember the exact words that were said , but I do remember the love , joy and happiness we shared through the tears and laughter!  
The rest of the family filed into the room wanting to share their happiness with the new mother and daddy to be.  
  The rest of the evening I was on the highest of highs!  My heart was overflowing with such love for these two wonderful young people for blessing ME with a new grandchild !
Me...pregnant 1982
  Now that I have had time to reflect, I remember holding my hand on my tummy and feeling that tiny life kick inside of me.  There is no other sensation like it in the world when that tiny foot pushes from the inside out.  A kick to the ribs every now and then, kept me on my toes! LOL! 

Knowing that the tiny life growing inside was part of ME, was such an awesome feeling!  Now, MY baby Allen and his dear wife Natasha will be able to experience that same undescribable love.  My ♥ cannot be any fuller than it is right now!
Mommy and Allen 3-1982
Allen Christmas morning 1982

                    To say that this was the best Christmas ever, is only comparable to MY baby's 1st Christmas in 1982. I remember his sweet face and eyes lighting up as he toddled towards the tree on his first Christmas morning.  His eyes sparkled with amazement and wonder!                                                                 

  Allen and Natasha have so many amazing moments to look forward to themselves, and I will be blessed to be able to share in many of those moments with my grandchild-to be!

A baby is something you carry inside you for nine months, in your arms for
 three years and in your heart till the day you die~Mary Mason~

  Next year when all the hustle and bustle starts and the smells of Christmas cooking fill the air, there WILL be room for one more tiny little person...adding another limb onto this WONDERFUL family tree! 
"A grand adventure is about to  begin!"                          ~Winnie the Pooh~